Since I've come out I've made quite a few gay friends and over the last few months I have distanced myself quite a bit from socializing as frequently as I was. And while I've had more time away from the group, I have watched the dynamics of relationships change within the circle and many times it's been hard for me to bite my tongue. I like everyone to be treated with respect and when that doesn't happen, and no one else is willing to call someone out it is especially annoying to me. But I've tried to mind my business.
At times I look at friends and wonder whether or not I could date them, or ultimately end up in a long term relationship with any of them. I think it's probably a natural thing to do... and if not I like to think it's cause I'm lonely and not cause I'm creepy. Ha!
Anyway I've come to identify a couple of friends I think would ultimately make a great couple, but one is dating someone else. We'll see if perhaps maybe the two guys who will be sharing a room in Cuba this year, will end up as a couple a few years down the road.
And then there are two couples that have very happy and healthy relationships, at least from the outside. These men give me hope that it's possible to find someone who can complete me and that I don't have to settle. But again, I wonder whether or not those two couples will stand the test of time. Or will life change them and distance may make them seek other paths?
Part of me wishes I could fast forward and find out. And I'll be honest with myself and say that part of that wonder comes from the fact that I may have an interest in one member of each group... only a harmless crush that I would never act on, but perhaps I'm just allowing myself to hold out hope by wondering what the future holds.
Ah... the life of a single man with date-able friends.